hehe! i'll smile all i want, i'll smile all i can

figured out a lot after much chatting with my boys.
poor sky, well gonna move on bro, im have faith in you to do better! :D

and the girls! have you all enjoyed your prom? i wonder! feel so much lighter now, more strength to carry on and stuffs. i just thought i benefited most out of it.
i have strong intuition, and i guess things will happen within my expectations, even though you gave me a surprise previously. this time round, i bet im correct.
and dont worry, i'll always be around to help out.
maybe in the coming year, my resolution will be to make as many people smile as possible. so! will you smile when i smile? let me bring that smile to you guys.

a promise to myself i'll never forget.

*a devil
i am
so watch out
he always gets what he wants.

好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你

*

imagine;

phew, i survived otbs and sand together. lets see whats to come.

there seems only a dim lighted path ahead
but ill try as hard as possible
to follow what i think is right.

不在乎有没有以后
爱你是活着的理由
紧紧的抱住跟你有关的一切
包括想着你的心痛

novel love.

真心的想给你一切
你偏偏只想要自由
一起拥有过的快乐
像断了线的气球

selfless sacrifice.

been blogging almost everyday since i started this blog. been writing a little of what i feel everyday. nice memories to be kept forever.
through these post, its really nice to reflect and recall things i've done in life.

*i think my brain is malfunctioning, theres so many things i cant remember.

*are you sleepin' well?

i haven't complete 2 projects due tomorrow. how great!

someone save me?

went out to post celebration for huisan's birthday. sky picked them up and we went 85 for dinner.
its been so long since i last patronised. den off to east coast park, overly crowded so we made a detour for parkway.

played pool awhile and we sent the girls back. went raimah for our usual session. did nothing much but still made my day all worthwhile.

and yes, once again i assured myself. its nothing really, and even if there is. this distance is enough already. im satisfied. really

*enjoy the shows*

"于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞"

some people gets to choose what they want
while some dont even have any choice before them.

how ironic.

i realised it yesterday. the difference.

you were a comedian, you made them enjoy.

no wonder.

*******************************************

it seems like most of us had moved on. im still stuck here

but i have to say, i like it here more than anywhere else.

“你”宁愿做她一辈子的好朋友。。。
还是勇敢的当一次她的男朋友？

first of all...

a little interesting finding, as human gets older, one virtue will slowly deteriorate.
guess that virtue....

next, guys... please stop suanning me with those *@%^@*#(@& from 1000000 years ago. if its just nothing in me you guys can talk about just... forget about bringing things up from 1000000 years ago.
im sure you guys don't like me to talk about your past ehh!

see! im losing patience.

anyways, i know its hard not to mention anything about my past since virtually theres nothing much to talk about me. haha!

anyways! happy birthday huisan!
hope you like the surprise we gave you just now!
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY


i guess im contended like that already, nothing else needs to be done.
for now....

今天 来到了机场
没什么特别的理由
只想一个人静一静
放松一下心情

到了观景台
看着来来往往的飞机
一个接一个起飞 降落
我就联想到人的梦想

每当飞机起飞时
就是一个新梦想的开始
而当飞机降落时
也就是一个梦想的完成或结束

我告诉自己
人生其实没那么遭
至少有美丽的彩虹随伴着我

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been updating lesser recently, school's getting more busy, esp on projects. lets hope i'll survive though this!
people! please enjoy while you can.
youth is running away from us.

o yeah, watched step up yesterday. for those of you who haven catch it, please do so. recommended by me!

the movie is basically about dancing, some romance involved with dancing. just makes you feel like dancing.
here are some screenies from the movie!

one word to start and... end off

tired.

mixed feeling.
fresh start of a monday morning.
lets hope everyone does well today.

have fun like theres no tomorrow. go!
will post more of ytd's thingy later. schooling in a moment.

至少你已经明白
time heals what reasons cannot

希望很快的 他能够帮上忙

笑多一点
一个美妙的开始

i know you guys are watching me over my blog.

thanks.

13hours 50mins and counting.

here we go

你那灿烂的笑容
是我最期待的画面

hip hip hooray, less than two days till you guys are free.
look forward
i wish i can stop telling white lies.
i wish i can be more straight forward.
i .. wish

i am not asleep yet
just did a new music player
and i have been listening to the same music over and over again.

my mind is in a twirl

sometimes i wonder
what has got into me?
why am i feeling like this
it just feels sucky

i need help. virtually
after staring blank on my computer screen for the last one hour and still i couldn't write anything out for my project.

always remember
no matter how sad we may be
no matter how much pain we go through
no matter what,
time heals what reasons cannot

*就算沒有結果　我也能夠承受*

i will be hard, but i'll try as hard as i can

我想和你一直走到最后

i don't need to the be one in the spotlight,
but at least
recognize my existence.

its the least i need.

tired, tired, tired

why do i care so much, who am i to do all this?

i wonder


anyways four more days to freedom, and a little more to the truth.
1 litre of tears? i must have cry around there inside
lets hope for a miracle because i feel so..

helpless now.

am i the only one thats left behind on the sixteen year old me or have i stubbornly refused to let myself grow up?

again, i wonder

if only i could turn back time.

had thought a lot last night, lets just wait and see what will happen next.

sang a lot jus now, mostly jay's emo songs. since i was alone at home theres no one to appreciate that session but its alright.

i sang my sorrows goodbye.

my life is a joke.

HAHAHA, i wanna laugh i wanna cry out loud,

感情要付出的代价太大太大
尤其是当事情即将发生
你身边最亲近的朋友身上

这是我第一次感觉到无奈
因为我只能眼睁睁看着
我根本就帮不上忙

我知道这是人身中难免会发生的事情
但为何偏偏是我最要好的朋友呢？
况且不是一次而已

我好烦好烦好烦
只希望在我的部落格里
能够找到一个让我的心定下来的空间

最后 我知道你们可能会到我的部落格
但我的心实在太乱 对不起
现在的我 只能在一旁装做什么都没发生过

对不起
对不起
对不起

as to all my jc and sp friends, just one (more) week to endure. come on come on, go for it.

smile smile smile, im not dumb to ask you to smile.

i am sincerly asking you to smile.

i like to blog a lot, because this is one place where i can share all my vows with people even if one body looks at them, i do feel a lot better after writing them down here.
recently, i've started day-dreaming again.
don't wake me up from this moment. no.




<-- can someone explain what's happening? haha!

*一个人的恋爱*

如果时间能够停留
我只希望在今晚
这个美丽的夜晚

虽然没有对一班人来说特别的事发生
但在今夜 那淡淡的感觉
仿佛是被注射了强心击
感觉好温暖好温暖的
我想
那应该就是幸福的感觉

谢谢你 虽然只是一段短短的对华
但我获得的 却是满脸幸福的笑容


还有一周 很多朋友们就会结束会考了
一个新的身活马上就好开始了
你们准被好了吗？

或许这个问题被问的人应该是我
我准被好身命下个阶段了吗？

不管这么样
你们都一定一定要在这最后一周里
加油噢

realise,
as i walk the path to the bus stop, the long path from the reservoir. scenes from 1 litre of tears came flashing back to me as my itunes played their theme song.
and at that moment, i realise i was all alone in the long path, lonely and all by myself then i wondered, my life has always been like this. even without exchanging looks, i'll walk pass people while knowing of their existence. giving them the cold shoulders in exchange of a cool self, where one walks his own path by himself.

will my road by the same in the future? the bored, lonesome, a world of only but myself? i'll wish someone would come by the road and greet me with a hello.
did something silly too, tried to walk like ikechi aya of that show trying to understand how it feels to want to do but cant do something you always like to do. was terrible and i felt especially in singapore, where people are moving in haste, begin not able to walk as fast is as good as being labeled outcast from the society.

perfection, is it possible? i wonder sometimes

原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定
.....

currently playing* 杨丞琳 - 只想爱你

我倒地还是不了解真正的自己
一直都在忙碌的生活里寻找着

人生有的问号太多太多
烦恼也接著一个一个开始
而我的也不例外 烦恼正一个接一个的向我直奔而来

可怜的我阿
现在只希望每天和你互相传送的短讯

千万不要小看这短讯里短短的几行字
它可是我脸上笑容的罪魁祸首！

希望希望 正在参与大考的朋友们
都能把最好最好的表现献出来
朋友们 要加油噢！

在此献上我最诚恳的祝福

*因为你的回应 最让我高兴*

lets start today's post with an interesting fact a lot may not know.
Razer copperhead is supposedly to the one of the industry leading mouse, however if any of your friends own any of them, please consult them of any problem they face using a copperhead.

Recently i went to razerzone support to find out more about the problems, was an interesting trip.

1. many many products especially "first edition" copperhead(s) are defective, they are not user friendly at all. even when they cost $129 each.

2. very very interesting! copperhead apparently do not work in windows xp media center. WOAH im one media center user.

3. even if your copperhead passed the first two test, does your copperhead keep disconnecting and reconnecting itself? personally, i have more friends who have a defective copperhead instead.

*no offence to razer mouse* i still love the razer diamondback i own, it really owns!

anyways was way busy yesterday, had lan session with my mates from ten straight to five. super tiring after that went for a walk in plaza sing before going home. rested for a while before setting off to raimah to meet my boys. did the usuals and alvin sent the rest home, just so convenient to drive.

woke up pretty late today, packed my table a bit and waiting for some lab files to finished downloading as im typing this. tutorials are never hard, project are! god.

and my friends, let me be straight forward!
*wheres my qck+* haha!

as for those taking A's, come on come on! i have faith in all of you! do it! =)

lastly, lets all pray for sky hes taking TP for driving tomorrow afternoon, lets hope he passes and drives me home! woohoo!

im so damn bored!
o man, somebody help !! i've got projects to work for and tons of tutorials waiting for me and i've been missing from my study table the whole week (fyi: my study table is opposite my computer table) haha the whole week except tuesday i've been on the computer table. omg

im too blank now to think of anything, lets just hope wishes do come true. let me start to believe in fairytales. something nice will happen soon.... i guess
did you dose off ?!?! haha! must be. naughty!


















and since i pretty much got nothing to do, i'll just post some random pics from my folder.o yeah my mum told me to put on earings! haha of cos, she wouldn't allow real piercings, its those magnet earings. next time you see me pose with that, im doing my mum a favour, not poser! haha

signing off,
Guan Xian. C

wee! haha i believe today is the best second november i spent in my life so far. so many wishes, haha o god! im so bhb. hahaha! somebody stop me!

eh jo, if you ever read this MAKE UP after A's hor, i wun ever forget! hahaha. as i promised i shall wish for you later! hahaha not forgetting the grow tall part! hehe!

going out for seoul garden later, will be back to post more. at the moment please enjoy the pictures i took while coming home in the bus. ironic.

3 words to start todays post

busy, busy , busy .

never thought of waking up at nine in the morning could take so much effort, laze in bed every single day for at least twenty minutes without fail before i finally get wash up.
at least in class, im super active (maybe its the class participation marks im anticipating), even my classmates say i don't look like i slept late previous nights. aww!

had lessons everday for the week till four, five. an hour later home. well, time just seems to sprint the moment i reach home, without realising everyday would be eleven plus when i look at the time. great, someone spare me some precious time of yours? bah!

weeee countdown from now.

are you still thinking about 你离开我连一句话都不说 ? hmm. i guess so